I am a little dragon

If u listen on the radio or any media there are songs about being 'perfect'. Songs like Perfect by Simple Plan and F**king Perfect by P!nk really tell that u can't be 'perfect' in anyway cuz you are who you are and you are perfect as a person you are right now. So girls and boys out there, especially teenagers don't think you are ugly or fats or not 'cool' and all. Be yourself not someone's shadow :).

When i recall my teen-age I never followed anyone or any 'style', I was me and i had a good teenage life. I don't care if boys didn't woo me or had eyes on me or I don't have a 'group'. Because you don't need it, they will come to you. When you are being sincere and not wearing any mask, the aura or vibe around you will make people attracted to you. They can feel the sincerity that you have and that you are 'cool' being you. You don't have to be a 'plastic' or biatch. Be a human please.

Sometimes it's not us who find these troublesome matter, the problems find us. Comparing, peer pressure, parents, siblings and much more. From my past experience it was hurtful and sometimes you will feel like it's the end of the world or you were thrown into an abyss but it is NOT. With your negative thoughts you open a huge gate for people to dictate you. Remember, it's your future and it's you who's gonna SUFFER or be pleased. It's not THEM, it's YOU. Of course you have to listen to what people wanted to say, whether it's a compliment or a critic just listen. Take what's good and ignore the gibberish. We listen but we don't follow except rules -d 'uhh- and yes we have to listen to our parents but we do have to use our brain on what should we do or avoid.

When people have high expectation on you, it really stress out. In any way you can't be perfect in anyway. Some might says the geniuses are able to do so. 'He/she is able to do it, he/she excels in sports and academics'. But look at them, how's their life? Not their lifestyle but their life. are they happy like a person their age supposed to be? Do they actually 'have a life'. We always heard people say 'uf get a life dude!' Analyse what they mean by that or step out of that thick wall. All in all be a good human not some rebel or less-humane. OK?

I'm 22 and I feel so old when my cousins or 'little brothers/sisters' ask me or share their story about their agony. hahaha. I love listening to the, cuz it's amusing hehe and of course i will help or advice if i'm able to do so. teen-age is such an immature-fresh era in everyone's life. this is where you trying so hard searching for your identity. It's full of struggles and the 'rebellious' age is around 16++ where you won't listen to your mom and always hurt her feelings. heh. you just can't help it but try not to. apologise to her if we hurt her feelings cuz it's bad to make your mum cry :)

Above all do not forget our god, doesn't matter what religion you are we've been taught from small that we have to be thankful of what we have, foods, shelter, looks, and everything. We must pray and do good things, ask for forgiveness because sometimes we never realised we had done something bad to people or anything. And do forgive people but don't forget, i'm not trying to be evil but everything that happen every second is a lesson to us. We learn from every mistakes that we did or from others. Never criticizes someone, instead take what happened as a reminder.

Start planning your life now, it's ok if suddenly we diverted our future plan. As long as you have plan of what to do in the future. Don't be a drifter, walk on the ground and straighten your road. If you met an obstacle or more find a way out or an alternative. As for me, I wanted to be an engineer when i was 12 but in the end Arts interest me more. I can stand reading and analysing literature or draw/paint for ours than be in a lab doing some science work. hahha. It took me 7 years to realise that Science stream is not for me because deep in my heart I have a passion towards baking and artistry. :D. Yes i struggled to get what i want to do but in the end i'm satisfied~! Nothing is easy n nothing is impossible~! Be happy and be positive. If you are in university or college, take psychology subject especially positive psychology. it is really gooood for you mind. Oh and have a good life like One republic songs Good Life.

Some people ask me how do I make my cakes/pastries so delicious, I don't know how to answer cuz i just follow the recipe and use good ingredients. Maybe because I love baking and I sincerely bake the cake for the person who order them plus when i'm doing them I wanted my cake to be delicious and especially for the person who's eating them. May they be happy and smile when they eat my cakes/pastries. I would be worry if my product didn't become like what i wanted.

Mom would wonder why I took all the bizzare order that require more times especially in 'drawing' the icing. I just simply said it's fun! I love to draw~!! :D:D

Baking makes me happy and I'm happy when my cakes/pastries make people happy. ♥

Done with blabbering I should go wash myself & get to sleep!!! muahx!

side note I don't include in too deep about religion because it's for general :) thank you

Nowadays smart phone(SP) is in trend and most of young ppl around my age uses SP.

In my case, well i do want a new trendy-up-to-date-complicated-too-many-apps phone buuuut

my cute phone is my 1st mobile phone n still alive till today. I don't care bout the appearance of my phone cuz i could never find other phone which can endure multi-times tortured made by me.

what i meant by 'tortured' is countless falls, sat on, missing, thrown, the housing-experiment (d bling² moments), when i get irritated i'll let it go with crushing my phone in my palm and the worst being eaten by my nephew/niece (yes, it was soaked with baby's saliva many³ times but i make sure to sterile it afterward) . hahahahaha!! despite aaaallll the hardship it went through, it's still alive tho went to a repair once(i think it went comma after too many concussion ._.) and many times this tough guy tried to escape me...i always lose my phones when i'm at home. -phone, do u really hate me?-

aannyyyway~~ that's what makes me stick with this one till it can't be repaired anymore..miahahahaha!! i wub u ♥ oh oh it's beeen..almost or more than 5 years i think.

my tough guy :D

did this thingy on FB n the result is 100% accurate~

according to element(d.o.b) I'm fire~~

this one more like 90%~

i'll just highlight what's accurate :P!

According to d.o.b

because i'll never know when i'll ever meet them again.

Why would I rather be alone?

because I don't think i could be there for them when they need me, eventho i wanted to b there.

Why i seem snobbish?

because our friendship will just remain as a name in the end.

Why I don't join a 'group'?

because I don't want to be left behind.

Why I don't have many close dear friends?

because i'll end up hurting them.

because it's not easy to meet up with them.

Why I ignore u sometimes?

because I hate giving hope n false plan.

Why I'm being mean?

because I can't always be there to pamper you

Why I don't make friends?

because it will make me miss them..a lot

Why would i do that?

It's rather 1 person hurt than 2 or more.

I feel like a balloon. Pumping air in every day till it's stretched to the max. What will I do if it's going to blow? I'll just cry my heart out. I feel like a lunatic trapped in a pretty box. My companion is a stuffed teddy bear. I need someone to talk to. Am i kidding myself, noone would listen freely or just be there. It's better to talk to a wall...I hope i won't get high blood pressure at this age....sometimes it's better to be mute or hv no feelings..yes? oh if anyone looking for a psychotic girl role, hire me, serious..i would do good :).

Pink-Perfect...i wonder if someone would ever say that to me. I would feel better.

we freed the chick n sat w it n she/he ate the food. it's so cute. yellow n round n faaat~~ haha.

so i took her n put it on my palm, luckily he/she didnt poop on me. i just cope it gently n she/he fell asleep on my palm. i was like d'aaww u must b lonely huh. so i name it Chikin n i assumed it's a she ._.~ haha. when i put her back to the ground cuz i wanted to find a basket for her, she suddenly disappear. i heard chikin calls loudly but nowhere to be seen. then i look below she was at my feet, phew gladly i didnt move. i took a careful step n she followed haha, it was very adorable. so i took her again n i brought chikin inside n showed to ayah. so we rearrange her 'home'. i found a lil basket fit for her, put some cloth around her bed so she would be warm. it was a sort of cozy house for her. (she didnt struggle or chirp loudly anymore). i left her there n after a few hours. her food pouch(i dunno d exact name) was stout. n there were poopies everryyywhere even on her bed. pfft -_-. i stroke her for a while n left her. then she started to chirp again...i told dad n he laughed about it..so i hv a new baby to look after now..hihi..

here's chikin..she's cute right?

it's like a real life drama huhu..i totally ♥ Hyun Bin! he's very good at acting!! aaaa~~ :D!!!

love love love it!! secret garden ost r very touching! especially 'that man'. the lyric really touched d deepest place in ur heart!! if a man sing that song to me sincerely..i think i would cry while hug him huhu. ( of cos that man has to b some1 i love at the same time lol!) n reason's song by 4men is just aaahh~~ ♥

ciao~~

sometimes i feel regret to come back to m'sia too early n not live w mama n ayah till i'm ready...

but it's no use to say stuff like that....the tears escaped..sigh..

now i'm pampering all the roses i can find around the house. I even kidnapped a few from along's house. heehee..i realised (from my perception) that the more beautiful a rose is the more thorny and dangerous she would be. (just like a lady, the more delicate she is, the harder to get) :P

the one that gave me 4 scratches on my fine hands. :(

last week i had this urge of baking cupcakes and do some decoration practice. I made almost 70 cupcakes (choc moist n butter). By the time i wanted to do the decoration half of it was eaten by everyone, haha. some of the design, i am very lazy to upload all the pics.

I made 2kg chocolate moist cake the next day but this time i used chocolate fudge frosting as the layer, not using ganache. In 5 days it's finito~ I also tried egg tart recipe and it was a success

i found few plain white blouse in the closet so i ended up doodling on them.

from this:

to this:

There were a lot we can do in a week. this week would be gardening week ;)

Mama bought Teddy for me when I was in Qatar. When I saw Teddy sitting along with other bunch of teddies, he just captured my heart and I just grabbed him and show it to mama. Since then i treasured Teddy very much and he is my sleeping companion ;3. I always bring him along if I have to move & stay anywhere else. Except when i went to Putrajaya, Teddy was left at home, he was sad but he met Cutie bun-bun ;).

Cutie bun-bun was a gift from my friend on my birthday. Though she looks like a pirate bunny but actually Cutie bun-bun loves baking, reading novel, sewing and dancing. Despite her petit figure, Cutie bun-bun is a furious bunny when she's angry. :O

Aren't they just cute together? Teddy said Cutie bun-bun is too adorable that he wished to hug her 24/7. Cutie bun-bun replied with a grin~~ hhahaha!!