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Dec 6, 2012
I love this man, he sings beautifully. 
I fall in love with his songs since i heard this one in 2005. It's very touch-y. Sad songs where both parties had to leave each other to chase their dreams. But will they be back together? will the agony ends? will they find true loves in this relationship? The man asked the lady to be patience and wait for him to come back and embrace her with his unending love but still he wasn't sure whether that will ever happen. Despite the bitterness, the lady swallow and accept the facts that she might never see him again. She supported him with his decision even though she knew the outcome.

I'll translate the lyric:

Leave me be,
alone without you.
Leave me longing,
till this moment moment.
I do not mean to be silent,
No words to utter.

We are separated because of 
the dream we are chasing.


*Will these two souls be together,
In finding true love?
Will all the agony in this soul be healed... soon?

Leave me be,
without words to be said.
We are separated because of 
the dream we are chasing.


*

I only ask of  you
please be patient
I will be back with love.


Will these two souls be together,
In finding true love?
Will all the agony in this soul finally be healed?

Will these two souls be together,
In finding pure love?
Will all the agony in this soul be healed....soon?


Not as literate as the real meaning in my language, but u get the gist hahaha.


Every time i listen to this song, tears will stream without warning. It hurts so bad because tears sting!
It feels like a scalpel slicing through your eyes. The last time i was in real emotional slumps was when
a certain far away person whom i adore dearly left because we are too much far away from each other. I was 16/17 i think. But the moment when he left really ripped me apart and I'm full of anger more than sadness.I cried every time i remember the moment when we will talk non stop, where he treated me like a little child and appreciate my existence. It was never a true love that i gave him but more like infatuated. I was very young, naive and craved for warmth. I understood the impossible distance that too great for us to reach, but i can never accept the way he end the closeness that we had. I was a fool to break the best of man's heart by choosing him. Since that day where he planted hatred in my heart, i never wanted to hear from him again. I'm grateful to that one person for not forsaken me after what I did and still remain as friends. Every moments will always be remembered my dear guardian. :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x_aXyU6DBTQ and this song was given to me by a guy who well i guess he really loves me but i can't return that feeling. Thinking it again, i think i turned down 5 guys and broke their heart and only 1 of them still remain my friend. My goodness, I just remember this a while ago.

After that I shut my stone-cold heart as I did ever since I was mere teen. It's hard for me to have a sparks towards men. All the crushes was for the sake of good looks. Reason of not letting anyone touch this heart was because I'm afraid I will be taken for granted. What if I am the one who cherished more of the relationship? What if I can't take the emotional sacrifices that I have to make? What if one day i feel suffocated and I want to run away even if it makes me bleed to death? I let it be for years until I come back to the land i was born at but I was a stranger there. Alone and hollow, I found someone who fits perfectly in my heart. The moment I saw his eyes, time stopped and I keep on wanting to know him. Again it was out of curiosity and infatuation, but i ended up falling in love with this dear person. His love towards me is immense.
From day to day i started to welcome him fully in my heart. I felt mum's warmth and dad comforts in him. Despite the obstacles, i stubbornly wanted this to last forever. As we grew up our feelings are like unquenchable fire. For me he is one of a kind, he heals my wounds. He will always be there at my worst and he will always accept my ugly sides. If i have to write a story of our 'adventure', it would be a great love journey with tears of bitterness and sweetness. and I'm here typing this at 4.42am; clueless of why i'm writing this. I just wanted to pour everything out. I just want the world to know of how great he is and how scared i am if one day he's no longer in my heart.
We hurt each other in myriad ways and countless times. I will cry my heart out even if it's just a small stupid argument. Even when I'm angry at him or fed up with his attitude, I will cry out of anger and still long for him. This love,longing and jumbled up feelings inside of me that's going to erupt like a restless volcano creates fear in myself. I'm afraid of my own heart and now i'm afraid of moving forward; I feel like restraining a ferocious giant that will destroy everything. I thought that distance will make me calm but sometimes it's hard to digest that. Sometimes I will feel cold, as if I've returned to be the way I was originally.
The greatness that he did to me is equal to me owing my life to him. Some might wonder what the heck is it? It's too deep to tell others but that's just how i feel. What makes me laugh more of myself it that whenever other man approaches me except my father and him, i will have goose-bump all over me.
I tried to understand the current situation in fact i clearly understood but i guess i'm the needy girl.
Give it a year or two or more, I can wait and wait to hold hand in hand with him. That fact i definitely understand. All i ask is to not be taken for granted and to not be the one who's cherishing what we are having.  

Will he gets tired of me or will i stray away from this cuz of fear?
I do not know what's ahead of us. All I could say is, come what may.
As mom and dad always remind me, to be prepared mentally and emotionally and accept what ever is coming. Doesn't matter if it's life or love issues.

I can feel this heart of mine slowly closing. I'm scared.....

And lastly will this relationship received full blessing and being acknowledged at the end?