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Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
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Jan 1, 2013
According to the 'western' calendar, it's already the new year 2013. Another 365 rounds to go. Hopefully everything will turn out to be much better that before :)
Some might have the good turns but for some it's the most heart wrenching beginning. But fret not my dears, no matter what happened we have to keep going. If the one we love leave us behind and never to come back. Weep and let everything out, then rise again. Our Almighty God is always there watching over us. He's there when we're sad or happy. Have faith in urself.
When i'm down with all the hardship that i have to go through. When i'm about to break down. I'll cry and cry till it hurts my lungs. I wish that everything was just a dream or i wish to vanish. But this is what my road of life looks like and i have to go on even if it gets too much and even if i goes astray. Sometimes, I forgot to sit longer and talk to Him. Sometimes, I was not sincere enough being with Him. Sometimes, I forgot to be thankful of what i have for all my life. Due to his immense loves, he will call me back and I will be on the right path again. Even if the whole world outcast us, He never abandoned us.
When the pain was too intense, i will complaint and be mad. But it was totally wrong. With all the hardship He gave us now is something he's preparing for the future. We never know what awaits, but He already sets everything right. I myself sometimes complaint how unfair my life is. I wish i could take that back and i feel like a fool. Without realising i became so strong mentally and not easily shaken. I didn't get mixed up with wrong people nor i turned out wild. Above all, i could be in my parents arms for the longest time than my siblings :).
People might say many unpleasant things about me, hate me or despise me. I survived the biggest 'back-stabbing' of my life. When we don't care bout what they said, things will be much better. All of the sickening false words they spread around about me, i didn't even cracked from it. I was angry because i did so many things that bring them to fame but I was thrown away and fed with ungratefulness. Alas, I do not care and may God repay me with something much more wonderful. They are now lost somewhere in the abyss of my memory trash can. *giggles*
Certain people query about my well-being. Of what i'm doing and what i'm going to do. Thank you for being so curious and interested in me.If u're being such a pester and a crack-pot, no thank you and stay away from me. Some sees me as zero because i have nothing special in my life and i'm not worthy. I just want to tell you that, there are still others who think i'm special and they are the most wonderful person in this world. Even if you don't like me for who i am and what i'm lacking; what's in you that's so special that you could look down on me? Our life is limited, we never know when we might die. I wanted to explore this world but that is quite impossible. What i can do is learn as much as i can. I hate repetitive works especially studying. I hate school except my friends and few teachers. I hate being caged and doing something that is not going to be use in my life later on. Aaand that was what i actually did till i finished my high school. I never care about my result because those papers means nothing much. I love practicals more than theories. I learnt many things by heart. From tedious works to more of a challenging ones. Well there is nothing to be proud of but i can at least fix and change burnt wires in plug, fix the lamp, make simple electric connections and also little plumbing. At least i know the importance things about taking care of car's engine 0.o. I can bake, cook and most of the house-works. I can do gardening and drawing. I do dance and online gaming. And quite good in computer stuffs. All that's left is perfecting my sewing skills.
If u roll ur eyes while reading this, let me ask you; can u do all of these? If you can, well congratulation you are a perfect human being for me.
This year April, i will be 24 years old. My god bless me on that. I feel like i'm still a little child. A part of me is scared as if my life is like layers of roses; each year goes by is equal to the petals that are drying out and dropping one at a time. ~.~! I'm hopping for this February to finally starts my shop and nothing intriguing comes along. What kind of shop you may ask, well i'll let you guess. I'll try to post some updates of how the progression. Where it might be, hmm...surprise! :)
Here are the most touching songs that will make me cry everytime i listen to them:
When i'm down with all the hardship that i have to go through. When i'm about to break down. I'll cry and cry till it hurts my lungs. I wish that everything was just a dream or i wish to vanish. But this is what my road of life looks like and i have to go on even if it gets too much and even if i goes astray. Sometimes, I forgot to sit longer and talk to Him. Sometimes, I was not sincere enough being with Him. Sometimes, I forgot to be thankful of what i have for all my life. Due to his immense loves, he will call me back and I will be on the right path again. Even if the whole world outcast us, He never abandoned us.
When the pain was too intense, i will complaint and be mad. But it was totally wrong. With all the hardship He gave us now is something he's preparing for the future. We never know what awaits, but He already sets everything right. I myself sometimes complaint how unfair my life is. I wish i could take that back and i feel like a fool. Without realising i became so strong mentally and not easily shaken. I didn't get mixed up with wrong people nor i turned out wild. Above all, i could be in my parents arms for the longest time than my siblings :).
People might say many unpleasant things about me, hate me or despise me. I survived the biggest 'back-stabbing' of my life. When we don't care bout what they said, things will be much better. All of the sickening false words they spread around about me, i didn't even cracked from it. I was angry because i did so many things that bring them to fame but I was thrown away and fed with ungratefulness. Alas, I do not care and may God repay me with something much more wonderful. They are now lost somewhere in the abyss of my memory trash can. *giggles*
If u roll ur eyes while reading this, let me ask you; can u do all of these? If you can, well congratulation you are a perfect human being for me.
This year April, i will be 24 years old. My god bless me on that. I feel like i'm still a little child. A part of me is scared as if my life is like layers of roses; each year goes by is equal to the petals that are drying out and dropping one at a time. ~.~! I'm hopping for this February to finally starts my shop and nothing intriguing comes along. What kind of shop you may ask, well i'll let you guess. I'll try to post some updates of how the progression. Where it might be, hmm...surprise! :)
Here are the most touching songs that will make me cry everytime i listen to them:
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Gambang, Pahang, Malaysia
May 29, 2011
Grains of sand will not stop in an hourglass, it will flow till the last grain. That's how i see a person's life. Our life just goes on n on till the last breath. Do you know what u're living for? Some people still not sure nor found their life purpose..i sympathize those people. Find it yourself and ask for guidance. Don't follow or copycat others. have ur own style, ur own dream. It's you who's gonna live that kind of life till u die, not them. u get the benefits & the suffering.
I've watched a great documentary about life and positive thinking. I love psychology and seriously this subject is very good to learn. It helps u knowing urself n others better :). positive thinking can have life-changing results such as increased wealth, health, and happiness. believe me it's true. all you have to do is be positive and tell yourself everyday what do u want in ur life, not what u don't want. but ur WANTS. praying and asking is the key. when we perform our prayer, we will ask god for forgiveness, better health n more wealth. why not we just be in that state all the time. being positive and think of what we want, what we wish for, n when, where, how. be precise so that your mind will automatically set the input n will tell the universe of what u want. :)
i've learned a lot in this 22 years but i'm still at a very low level of knowing myself, this world n beyond. i sometimes wish that i would be 17 again and set my life accordingly. but that's impossible. so i have to redo all that 5 years of waste and make it a fruitful outcome. Though an hourglass can be turn around every time the sand finish flowing down, we can't turn our life time like that. what we can do is use every grain preciously. if we had missed our 'turn', it's ok, life goes on. try to learn from every mistakes that we do n others too.
to all teens or adult out there, don't waste ur time with useless things. enjoying one's life has a limit. what's the use if u keep on enjoying but u're dead broke? save what little money n time u have. being 19 or 20 isn't "too early" or "still young". it's a stage that you have to start a serious life NOT time to get serious with life. always plan ur life and visualize what u will be in the next 5 years. i've visualized myself and i feel that i've lost so much years. I'm catching up with what i've wasted. i do miss hanging out and all but on the other hand, i have to settle the problems and have my own income n steady lifestyle. then i don't have to worry about splurging n going here n there. most importantly i DO NOT trouble/burden my parents with my pleasure+leisure time.
it's time for us to make them happy and relax. My dad was 40 n my mom was 37 when i was born. Now i'm 22 and they are retired, i'm glad n happy to be with them all the time. Living with them made me understand how it feels running a family. it's hard n challenging. I'm thankful to god n my parents for everything they gave me all my life and i think what they gave me is enough, it's my time now to return the favor. my hourglass is still 3/4 full at the top and that is not enough for me. dear allah, please prolong my life and give my parents the best health, do give us a prosperous blessed life. amin. :)
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